To Him we belong and to Him shall we return

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Ammi, it’s been three weeks since you returned to Allah سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى and only He knows how I’ve managed to go through this grief up until now. The last few weeks have taught me more than I could ever learn in a lifetime. I took this photo on our way back from visiting you at your final resting place. We used to go on these very same roads for a long drive for a view of the sea with a thermos full of chai that you used to make. A mini picnic for us every now and then that would be etched in my memory forever.

I know you were most worried about me, being your only daughter and the baby of your family. You kept asking people close to you to take care of me once you’re gone but never said a word of parting ways to me directly, always giving me hope that you will be okay. I will always be in awe of your unwaivering faith in Allah, your strength, patience and selflessness. Even during your last days you kept taking Allah’s name and how He will do what’s best for us. I always have and I always will try to be a reflection of you.
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Allah has accepted your duas and has given me sabr, that’s the only explanation I have because He knows that I would not have been able to cope with what has happened otherwise. I’m surrounded by so much warmth and love that you showered on me from the day I was born and through the people I got to know because of you, they keep praying for me and asking about my well-being.

To those who have called me, I’m sorry I’ve not been able to take your calls, I will get back to all of you In’sha’Allah soon but please know that your duas and kind words mean the world to me as I try and heal and make peace with this loss even though my heart is in pieces. I don’t think this void that I feel will ever be filled but hopefully with time, her memories and the lessons she’s taught me I’ll be able to move forward and be a source of Sadqa-e-Jariya for her to be able to reunite with her in the hereafter.

Ya Allah, keep her close to her loved ones who have passed away in Jannat-ul-Firdaus. Help me and my brothers be a source of Sadqa-e-Jariya for her and reunite us in Jannat-ul-Firdaus, Ameen ya Rabbul Alameen.

Ammi, it’s been over two weeks since you returned to Allah سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى and only He knows how I’ve managed to go through this grief up until now. The last few weeks have taught me more than I could ever learn in a lifetime. I took this photo on our way back from visiting you at your final resting place. We used to go on these very same roads for a long drive for a view of the sea with a thermos full of chai that you used to make. A mini picnic for us every now and then that would be etched in my memory forever.

I know you were most worried about me, being your only daughter and the baby of your family. You kept asking people close to you to take care of me once you’re gone but never said a word of parting ways to me directly, always giving me hope that you will be okay. I will always be in awe of your unwaivering faith in Allah, your strength, patience and selflessness. Even during your last days you kept taking Allah’s name and how He will do what’s best for us. I always have and I always will try to be a reflection of you.
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Allah has accepted your duas and has given me sabr, that’s the only explanation I have because He knows that I would not have been able to cope with what has happened otherwise. I’m surrounded by so much warmth and love that you showered on me from the day I was born and through the people I got to know because of you, they keep praying for me and asking about my well-being.

To those who have called me, I’m sorry I’ve not been able to take your calls, I will get back to all of you In’sha’Allah soon but please know that your duas and kind words mean the world to me as I try and heal and make peace with this loss even though my heart is in pieces. I don’t think this void that I feel will ever be filled but hopefully with time, her memories and the lessons she’s taught me I’ll be able to move forward and be a source of Sadqa-e-Jariya for her to be able to reunite with her in the hereafter.

Ya Allah, keep her close to her loved ones who have passed away in Jannat-ul-Firdaus. Help me and my brothers be a source of Sadqa-e-Jariya for her and reunite us in Jannat-ul-Firdaus, Ameen ya Rabbul Alameen.


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